“How much time does he have?”
“I’m afraid only days…”
That was two years back.
Just two days later… Dec11th….3 AM…we got a call from the hospital about grandpa’s condition being serious. Masi woke me up and together we started for the hospital…taking utmost care so we don’t get granny out of her sleep. (Considering she hadn’t slept for a week already)
At the hospital… we saw him struggling to breathe.
I started crying and I was made to walk out of the room.
At 7 AM, after four hours of battling for life…. he breathed his last.
Grandpa wanted to live. He thought it was a mild tumor and he would be fine in no time. Neither we had the courage to tell him about his cancer. He lived with hope, with strength, with belief…till the end.
He always knew we would not be able to do without him. He knew there wasn’t anybody in the family who could replace his position, sincerely take up his responsibilities, spend money as wisely as he did, take care of his much loved family. And he was right…even after two years of his demise… nobody has been able to prove himself as responsible as he was!
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Two years from the time you passed away
Still the memories of you like just yesterday
At times I feel you near…
Like we are watching TV together
And sometimes I search for you
I refuse to believe you are no more here
When I’m sad, thinking of you makes me double sad
And when I’m happy…. you multiply my joys.
To share my joys I talk to your photographs
Maybe you’re hearing me but I cannot
Umpteen things that I want to do for you
A foundation, a donation on your name to name a few
But too small are my abilities, sometimes I give up
I’m vexed; I have lost the purpose of this life
I know you’re watching me from there
Know in my heart you will always be there
Not just not as any physical figure
But someone I love the most and will forever treasure
Still the memories of you like just yesterday
At times I feel you near…
Like we are watching TV together
And sometimes I search for you
I refuse to believe you are no more here
When I’m sad, thinking of you makes me double sad
And when I’m happy…. you multiply my joys.
To share my joys I talk to your photographs
Maybe you’re hearing me but I cannot
Umpteen things that I want to do for you
A foundation, a donation on your name to name a few
But too small are my abilities, sometimes I give up
I’m vexed; I have lost the purpose of this life
I know you’re watching me from there
Know in my heart you will always be there
Not just not as any physical figure
But someone I love the most and will forever treasure
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36 comments:
divs...
i love this post
i love u
n i love ur grand dad.
u knw i never got the chance to knw my grand dads. i am sooo sooo sooo very unlucky.
this post made me sad and at the same time proud of u.
yes u will be able to open the fundation in ur grand dad's name.
dont worry at all he is near u always. listning to watever ur r saying to u. observing ur evry crazy and pure hearted deeds.
n i think d last bit is a poem but some prom in posting. thik kar usse.
it may not be a poem but i read it as a poem chimps. loved every bit of it. ur grand pa is one lucky grand pa. i bet he has read it and is smiling.
love u so so sooooooo much my donk-monks chimponks.
(((hugs)))
awwww.. sweetheart, thats such a touching post dear.. and i believe everything you dream for, will come true.
And you sure know he is always with you... not just looking from above but staying in your heart :)
Though i understand it is not enough, but you are one strong girl, sweets :)
Love you!
**hugssssssssssss**
Dearest Divvu....
This was heart warming.... i have tears in my eyes... Baby girl, you're right... he's watching you.... and he can listen to you...
This posts reflects your tender feelings for your grandfather.. I hope God gives you peace and a purpose in life and may you fulfill his dreams :)
Love you sweetheart
*hugs*
*muah* !!!
ah swts, such an emotional one.. love you lil one.. hugs..
Your grandpa would be reading this from somewhere for sure... and he will be happy...
God bless his soul...
Have a good day da, cheers...
awww.. divz! I'm sure your grandfather must've been really great!
Very very touching! M not that emotional kind at all, but this made me feel for you! :(
With love!
Shrav
*hugs*
As soon as I saw the Title of this post on my blog, I knew it would be your Grandpa. The only post of yours that I significantly remember is the one where you said he used to call you, "Divi Divi Divi tam Nuvvantene nakishtam". PK is touched!!
You can have all the world reassuring you its going to be fine but somewhere deep down you know, he'll forever be missed. The fond memories will live on, making his presence felt, all the time, all the way. You say he lived with hope AND strength. And someone who does that is always there with his family to show them the way. May he forever, Rest in Peace.
awww..
i mean it so piognanat..
i know no one can really understand wat u feel n u cant express how exactly u feel..
but still i know, i too miss my gradnfather a lot, i was too young wen he passed away, but i was soo attached with him tht i still see him around me..
i know u r sad, but cheer up, he wud nt like to c u sad babes.. he will b watchin over u, rather do n try to achieve things tht wud make him happy...
hugz!!
love yah..
Hey Divvu...
Apposite tribute to such a strong soul....I know you must have heard this like a gazillion times...but I really do know what you are going through!!Lost both my grandmothers to cancer.....I miss them so very much!!!...
And I've been to the hospital...seeing them taking their last breath...It is veryy painful...I cried so much....and I slept crying....
But you gotta move on...thats what your Grandpa would want...for sure...
TC....
Keep writing....try a wonnet..:P :D :P :D
Everytime you feel you have lost purpose in life, some known person in the world of stars would not be very happy.
tc.
Princess,
That was so very very touching . . . . . I'm sure your grandpa is very happy, and blessing you from where he is,
The highest praise i can ever hope of giving you, is this:
YOUR GRANDFATHER IS PROUD OF YOU.
Ps. Am i allowed to cry now?
Sob.
Waaaaaaaah!
:'(
:'(
oye chimponks i support ur indu. so next time before u feel that u hv lost purpose or u hv lost.., think again.
love
(((divz)))
I love you na,Divvu..but I also understand your pain,and sadness..
But then Grandpa will always be watching you..and so says the last para of your poem..
Just try being happy..and people come in life for a)a season b)a reason c) forever
And your grandpa is definitely thr for the last part..so smile,my baby! =)
@pt
thanks moti :) i love u too :) hmmm proud of me? kis baat ke liye moti :O about the foundation - i hope so :)
hez also seeing things that he would hate to :(
some random lines..not sure if they make a poem :P
Love u too pt-moti-POTTY :D
@janu
thanks for believeing in me janu :) i wish even i believed in myself :|
ya i'm a strong girl ;)
love u too janu :)
@meher
ayyo u had tears? :( i dont like that :( lol @ god giving me a purpose in life :D
I LOVE U TOOOO :-*
@sawan
ur comment already made her smile *lil one* *blushing*
@arv
:)
@shrav
aha? ur not emotional kind? guys are guys :P *kidding* every person has some emotions in him..i believe so :)
@pranav
touched? what happened to the non-hypothetical part of u? ;)
thank you for such sweet words :)
@richa
each one of feel the same abt grandparents :)
i'm fine richa :)
love u :)
@akshat
ohh :( sorry about that akshat :(
life definitely would go on :)
a wonnet? lol i ain't s talented as u r :)
@indu
i know indu :(
@sid
i'm not very sure if hez proud of me and u can not cry :|
@pt-moti-potty
haa why wud u NOT agree to MY indu :D
@aayu
:) for the moment...i'm happy...i donno abt future though :) thank u for those words :)
granpas are so special... my own grandapa was so special to us..with every dumb problem we always went to him ..and he was always there..then he left ..leaving a void behind
may his soul guide u like a beaconlight in times of darkness n shower blessings in prosperity..
luvd d post...
ohhh
we never really get over or forget the one who has passed away.. they void they have left behind always stays ...
i so loved this post yaar
*hugs*
So sad.. but realities of life are a bit harsh..
jane wale hamesha yaad aate hai...
very touching di
@farah
even grannys are :)
hmm :(
@anwi
thanks anwi :)
@raks
hmm we can never forget them :) thanks raks :)
@aneesh
right :)
@neha
:)
awww
so sweet of ur divvu
i can see how u love ur granna....
i was very affectionate towards my dadu ....but he passed away when i was just 5 years old.....stil lremember my childhood days playing with granna.......going to nursery school while sitting on his shoulders
dun it was
ur so nice ,divvu
May he always be at peace.And am sure you will fulfill your dreams for him one day :)
Love U!Ummmma
nice post.. dunno wat to say.. can just say **hugs**
that was touching indeed...
i can totally relate this with you...i have seen my father struggling the same way....
take care ...
that was touching... the love u have for grandpa is filled in this post...
and m sure he would be happy seeing his li'l granddaughter writing so well!!! he would be proud!!
well written poem...
ps:
Sob.
Waaaaaaaah!
:'(
:'(
@solitary writer
:)
@sami
:) lets hope :) love u too :-*
@vinau
u told me about this earlier vinu :( and am glad ur back :)
@onion
stop crying :(
ya right:) guys are guys!
It's just that certain ppl are more emotional and I'm a lil less emotional! M more of a fun loving guy!!:)
and why do you have to take a dig at me at every available opportunity?? lolz!! :)
i commented here wer did it go :(...
urs..hemu..
u know.. i dont have words for this!! :)
somehow i am always afraid of my dear ones leaving me!!! i so hate it!! :(
but the only thing i can say is... may his soul rest in peace, i wish wherever he is, he is happy... and he is looking from the sky n showering u with his blessing all over!!! :)
Such things arent healed by time, but its the love towards them which make us remember them... :)
Take Care,
Ankur
touching post yaar..and awesome dedication...may his soul rest in peace...
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