Remembering him...

“How much time does he have?”
“I’m afraid only days…”

That was two years back.

Just two days later… Dec11th….3 AM…we got a call from the hospital about grandpa’s condition being serious. Masi woke me up and together we started for the hospital…taking utmost care so we don’t get granny out of her sleep. (Considering she hadn’t slept for a week already)

At the hospital… we saw him struggling to breathe.

I started crying and I was made to walk out of the room.

At 7 AM, after four hours of battling for life…. he breathed his last.

Grandpa wanted to live. He thought it was a mild tumor and he would be fine in no time. Neither we had the courage to tell him about his cancer. He lived with hope, with strength, with belief…till the end.

He always knew we would not be able to do without him. He knew there wasn’t anybody in the family who could replace his position, sincerely take up his responsibilities, spend money as wisely as he did, take care of his much loved family. And he was right…even after two years of his demise… nobody has been able to prove himself as responsible as he was!

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Two years from the time you passed away
Still the memories of you like just yesterday
At times I feel you near…
Like we are watching TV together
And sometimes I search for you
I refuse to believe you are no more here


When I’m sad, thinking of you makes me double sad
And when I’m happy…. you multiply my joys.
To share my joys I talk to your photographs
Maybe you’re hearing me but I cannot


Umpteen things that I want to do for you
A foundation, a donation on your name to name a few
But too small are my abilities, sometimes I give up
I’m vexed; I have lost the purpose of this life


I know you’re watching me from there
Know in my heart you will always be there
Not just not as any physical figure
But someone I love the most and will forever treasure