The Dumbi Gang Party!

As I had mentioned in a previous post, the official Anniversary Celebrations of our Dumbi Gang are being held today at our very own blog here. Get yourself over there as soon as possible! :)

Music to my ears

What music is to me… I would never be able to put into words. Particularly those with touching lyrics that moisten the eyes and take me back to memories. Isn't it amazing how those lyricists write lines that concur with every state of your mind and heart?

I have had this strange connection with Hindi songs right from the time I started to love music…I've never felt that kind of connection even with songs of my mother tongue. From those old romantics of 70's to the recent melodies…I've quite a big list of favorites.

All of them have a special place in my heart…and from today… even on this blog of mine. Each song will be posted as My Music Mania on every Saturday (Unless I get disconnected from the net) along with my memories associated with it (if any) :P

(Ok, the idea is inspired from arpi di who posts her favorites as SONG OF THE MOMENT :P I hope she will not mind :P)

This week’s MMM:


Tujhse naaraz nahin zindagi…from the movie Masoom





Tujhse naaraz nahin zindagi hairan hoon main
Tere masoom sawaalon se pareshan hoon main

Jeene ke liye sochaa hi nahin dard sambhaalne honge
Muskuraye to muskurane ke karz utaarne honge

Muskuraye kabhi to lagta hai jaise hothon pe karz rakha hai

Aankh agar bhar aai hain boondein baras jayengi
kal kya pata kis ke liye aankhen taras jayengi

Jaane kahan gum hua kahan kho gaya
Ek aansoo chhupa ke rakha tha

Zindagi tere gham ne hume rishte naye samjhaye
Dhoop mein mile jo bhi mile pyar ke thande saaye...

And the translation (from Google) of the lyrics to English (Specially for you Lena)

Life, I am not upset with you… I am just surprised
And distressed by your innocent questions

I never thought that in order to live, I would have to bear with the pains
To smile, I would have to take on the debt of smiling
If ever I were to smile, I would have to insure this debt on my lips

Today if I became teary-eyed, the tears will fall…
Who knows tomorrow whom these eyes will wait for?

Who knows where I had lost...
That one tear I had kept hidden...

Life, your sorrows have taught us new relations
Whomever you shall meet in the sunlight, you will feel the cool shade of love...

There aren’t any special memories with this song but I always listen to it when I am sad…and I actually feel good after that.

P.S- I can feel the anguish sustaining the wrath expressed by fellow bloggers following the Mumbai attacks. But I myself haven’t been able to write a word on it. I personally feel that the worst has been incurred and the fanatics have succeeded in their motive. As for the NSG killing them- I suppose the terrorists were prepared for it. After all the damage has been done.

Its high time the Govt realizes that Prevention is better than Cure.

Sharing the fleeting joy...

I have not been in my high-spirits during the past one week. Actually I’m still frustrated…with life, with myself and everything that’s happening around.

But between all of this… a few things made me smile.

The first is Sami's gift: I wish I had a cam so I could click pictures of what she had sent for me as a part of the due birthday gift :P. A sweet (read small) letter, two chocolate boxes (again read small :P), a lovely stole and a perfume LOVE AFFAIR :O :D. Of course the closest to my heart will always be the letter (considering that she hasn’t ever written a letter to anybody :P including her love :P).

Hey lambi,

Finally I sat down to write down something for you :) (Sorry don’t mind my handwriting :D).

Just want to say that I love you loads and loads and you are like a “real” sweet sister to me whom I can not only laugh and talk with but also fight to my hearts content- HA HA HA!



No matter wherever we go or whatever you do, may our love always grow. Hope to meet you as soon as possible… (at least at my wedding *blush blush*) :P

May every little wish from your pure heart come true and may you always be the queen of your king’s heart.

BE HAPPY ALWAYS.

Keep smiling :)

Stop growing taller (lol).

GOD BLESS YOU LAMBI.

LOVE YOU LOADS.

UMMMMMMMMMAAA!

Behind the letter she made a brick wall of all the names she gave me till date- Div, Divvi, Divvu, Lambi, Dumbi, Pagli, Sissy, Goodlegooba, Divya, Sweetheart, Baby :D :D

That was her letter…she tried her best to make it look better than what I made for her but of course failed :P

I know she would kill me if I thanked her for everything…

Mots, no matter how many times we fight… no matter how many times YOU shout at me :P … I will always have the same love for you- the love of a “REAL” sister. Plz don't ever think I love you any less. Ummaa.

And Vinay made me smile yet again today :). He made this pic with a poem for me. The poem is about my love for my grandfather. I am stunned how nicely you have put my feelings for my grandpa into a poem. And you know this is the bestest gift anybody could have ever given me :).

My First Poem : A quirk of fate

A smart young fellow admired by all
A gifted intellect and a heart of gold
A belief system so strong
Hopes and dreams that held his brawn

He stood an example for platonic love
People valued his selfless thoughts
His body and soul rooted in faith
Trusted God to every extent

A quirk of fate and he tumbles down
Hope dies by inches and breaks him along
Sick at heart, he hits the bottles
Gives up hope and ends the battles

Questions his existence and his strong beliefs
Loses conscience and blames his ethics
He shoots his mouth and goes weak
Lives in doldrums and dies in grief

For all that you do, I have nothing to say
But Look to your right, you will find me there
A rising star I see in your eyes
Reach for the skies and fight to the finish


P.S - This poem was the first one i ever wrote, a dedication to a friend and a treasured memory. Do not search for the comments section- disabled ;)

P.P.S- RECOMMENDED POST - PK's - The Elite..The Impact...

Divvi DIvvi Divvi Tam

Was reminded of a few words Grandpa used to say when he was alive.


"Divi Divi Divi tam Nuvvantene nakishtam"


I need not explain the first three words ;) But just for the non-telguite readers…the words subsequent to Divi mean “You are the one who I like the most”.


Needless to say…I blushed every time he said that :P


When I lost hope and gave up things with much diffidence… he taught me how being positive helps. Not that I learnt to be positive. I still think being positive means having hopes and expectations, which ultimately lead you to being a discontented soul.



"Success once will never let you look back hence". He used to say.

I couldn’t agree more. Back in school I was rather a dumb n depressed student who always allowed people to make fun of her. But through out my intermediate I was quite industrious. Studied really hard and always topped in Chemistry. Mathematics wasn’t bad either. I was amazed at my own capabilities. And when I got to hear some really pleasing applauds from the teachers, I decided to keep it going.

Of course engineering almost killed my instinct. Or maybe priorities changed. Today I don’t have the will to do anything. Just eat, sleep, chat and take immense pleasure in doing so. No worries about future.

My brother called me a waste today :P Good for nothing… I just agreed :D :D. He asked me to post my resume into freshersworld.com and I said- I don’t know how to do that…you can find my resume in the UNUSED DESKTOP folder in the system….please do it for me.

I am a waste. ;)


The post was supposed to be about my Grandfather :O


Never would I hurt him, not even in my wildest dreams

But one day I fell in love and broke his strong beliefs

Even so… I was protected with utmost care

From every other member who demeaned my moral fiber


He asked me to concentrate on my career and that it was no way to heed…that bringing the best of men for me was solely his responsibility.

But I already was in love and could not pull back. Falling in love was easy… breaking up is not.

I do regret for hiding so many things from him. Sometimes i even wish he doesn't get to see all this. But I see no other way.

Someday I thought he would understand….but before that he was gone.

P.S - People who thought i am literally jobless... i am not :P i do have an offer from SATYAM...just the joining date seems to be in March 2009 :P

P.P.S - Somebody try and give me a download link for a good voice recorder...through which i can save and upload some files. Whoever does that.... will get to hear a song from me :P :P . I know now nobody would risk :D

! ? :O :(

Trust… comes easily to me
And it leaves… twice as much easily
Still…I never stopped trusting
For when there’s no trust…there’s no love!

---------------------------------------------------


Ever felt depressed for absolutely no reason?
Am feeling so blank, so jobless at the moment :O
If i posted my resume here, would someone offer me a job? :(

P.S—The friendship celebrations are being postponed to 30th of this month because someone is REALLY busy (Lena of course :P). And do send the dedications people….we open the mail box only to find no new messages :P For more details- click here

A lonely star

A myriad of stars
Forming a cluster
But a lonely another
Drifting out of kilter

My bestest friends are leaving for the U.S this December. I have nothing new to say, just- I LOVE YOU, I WILL MISS YOU and I WILL NEED YOU....ALWAYS!

Tags

Tagged by Pri of Nostalgic moments, I have a lot more pending but this one was interesting so thought of taking it up :)

1. Complete this phrase: "if only I could…
Talk to my grandpa once again. (That’s how I felt today)

2. Did you get enough sleep last night?
Nope :( Not since I started going for java classes :(

3. What were you doing before you slept last night?
Was talking to Neha for the first time over the phone, really really feel good when she says Divvu di :P :) Love you baby :-*

4. First thing you thought about this morning when you woke up?
Java class :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

5. Do u ever wonder why the sky is blue?
Yes, after listening to the song AASMAN HAI NEELA KYU PAANI GEELA GEELA KYU from rock on :P I even wondered why 2+2=4 and not 5 :O I still didn’t get my answers though :(

6.Did you ever try to skip meals?
Yep, if chocolates filled my stomach :)

7. Lights on or off?
Off :|

9. Are you afraid of the dark?
No, am a brave girl :P

10. Favorite hangout/s?
Anywhere with friends. Even a zoo will do :P

11. What are your plans for tonight?
Chat, sleep and wake up at 11 AM tomorrow.

12. People you can't live without?
Family and friends. You think you cant do without them but ultimately when they are gone…you have to.

13. Favorite song when you're sleepy?
If I had to name just one- Ek din aap from Yes boss.

14. Whats new??
Another question I hate to answer apart from WASSUP?

15.Are you a giver or a taker?
Both, but why do I feel like I don’t get what I want :O

16. If you could choose another name, what would it be?
Just wanna get rid of my first name :P

17. Is there any person in the world who knows everything about u?
hmm almost everything??--maybe!...EVERYTHING??--no! (Copy pasting Pri’s answer here :P )

18. Last text message from?
Lena, it made me smile/laugh :P

19. What are u thinking right now?
If my big brother would come back and check what I am doing on the internet :|

20. Whats the one thing u hate most been done to you?
Indifference

21. Are u in love with life or do u hate it?
Sometimes love it, sometimes hate it but I know I will live through it…come what may :)

22. If you were dead and your soul was given another chance, what would you do first?
As per your question I am already dead, what can I do :O

23. If you could choose your eye color, what color would you like to have?
I love my eyes, would never want to change their color :P

24. What are the things you always bring?
Smiles even when I am sad :P (I donno if I really do, but people say so :P), love and Surprises.

25. Do u believe in love?
Yup!

26. Any question u would love to ask someone?
Why is 2+2=4 and not 5 :|

Another tag for you to answer, this one am doing for my onion :P, But hez gone offline without reading :|

1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. Something I have and YOU want?

4. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

5. Describe me in one word.

6. What was your first impression of me?

7. Do you still think that way about me now?

8. What reminds you of me?

9. If you could give me anything what would it be?

10. How well do you know me?

11. How do you see me in the future?

12. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn’t?

13. Are you going to post this in your blog and see what I say about you?

Missing you...

“I wish I had always walked alone...

Then I would never have missed you around”

Live it :) ... Don't kill it :(

Failure in exams. Such a Disappointment.
Cheated in love. Feels like hell, I know.
Pressure at office.
Hurt, dejection, betrayal.
Personal life at peril.
The Nobody-loves-me feeling.

Ever felt like putting an end to all?

Suicide is often associated with cowardice but I believe it’s a thing of the brave. How else could anybody leave the world… his loved ones …knowing that he would never return…he would never get to see those faces again. The faces that at sometime or the other have been a reason behind the smiles.

Life is precious…in spite of the umpteen difficulties it throws at us every now and then-life is precious… for you live it only once.

During all those difficulties … spend time with people who can make you smile or just cry but don’t give up on your life.

Coz nothing and nobody is worth the sacrifice of your life.

And because in the end…everything’s gonna be alright ;). Believe it or not.


P.S- Part of Div's not-so-famous but true philosophies :).

P.P.S- See life is soo colorful :P just like my post :D

Forever love

My absence- If it is of any concern to you...

I will never know coz i would never leave you


P.S - I wish mosquitoes existed only in Russia :(

Of Friends...Parties...and Gifts

Gems may be precious, but friends are priceless and the more we live the more we agree with it. And nothing can keep you apart from people you care about, because there is no distance too big between friends as love gives wings to the heart.

It has been almost the year since the great friendship was born. The friendship that marked the beginning of Dumbi Gang. And on the 22nd November we celebrate one year of totally girlie friendship: Sami, Div and Lena have got to know about each other’s existence at this very time one year ago. Miss Preeti joined us a bit later.

Here we are inviting you all to a big party that will take place on the 22nd this month (location will be given out later as it is top secret information). Of course since it is a birthday party gifts are a must. Like Richard Bach once said "Every gift from a friend is a wish for your happiness..." so if you want to wish for the happiness of the Dumbi Gang, you are welcome to do so by mailing the gifts to thedumbibloggers@gmail.com

You can choose if you want to give your gift to a certain person you feel more connected to, to the whole gang of us, or to the friendship in general. Just lets have some fun here!! :)

More info on the coming party will be following… Stay with us till then… and later ;)

PS: Written of course by Lena, Posted of course by ME

Silent Conversations

A few friends in my life… I’ve never been in lack of words for.

Others… I’ve never felt the need of words for.

** Dedicated to a dear friend- Rukmini

Java Queen

After nearly six months of my association with JAVA and his family, all I can say is that my knowledge is expanding and I’ve decided to share this hard-earned knowledge. FREE OF COST (proving yet again that the best things in life are for free.)

**Concentrating more on interview questions.

What is a well-formed xml document?

An xml document that is formed well is called a well-formed xml document.

What is a valid xml?

An xml document that is not invalid is called a valid xml document.

One similarity between eXtensible markup language and Hyper Text markup Language?

Both are markup languages.

What is a stateful bean?

A bean that is full of state is known as stateful bean.

What is a stateless bean?

A session bean that has no state is called a stateless bean.

If you’re wondering what a BEAN is…

Go back to KG.

What is the difference between Java beans and Enterprise java beans?

Enterprise.

What is JSP?

A 3-letter word never to be found in your dictionary.

What is the difference between web server and application server?

Don’t tell me you can’t see the difference. It is soooo obvious. 

What is garbage collection?

You would be knowing better :P

What are user-defined exceptions?

Exceptions that are defined by the user.

What is their purpose?

User can happily define exceptions.

What is HOT deployment?

*Blushing* 

What are cookies?

Cookies are small, flat-baked treat, usually round, containing milk, flour, eggs, and sugar, etc

Can you write a simple java program?

SIMPLE JAVA PROGRAM.

** Vinay, Thanks for the title!

P.S - If clover is reading this... lemme know your name and city, your blogs are private :( :P 

Life's like that...

A few things I’ve learnt in the past few days…
 
Ø During tough times… only you can help yourself. Nobody else can. Friends are always there… but only to support you through everything. Ultimately YOU are your only aid.

Ø Someone once said I am an emotional fool. I say I am emotions-full. There is a difference and I love being one.

Ø Happiness is followed by sadness and vice-versa. This moment you are sad about something…things will change the next moment. (Moment here not meaning literally…it can even mean years :P LOL)

Ø Sometimes chocolate ice-creams and chicken biryanis seem to be the best cure to your problems :P

Ø Nobody is worth losing your self-respect. But sometimes you have to lose yourself…. not for anybody but for your own survival.

Ø It is really difficult to concentrate in your JAVA class when you are depressed. Better skip the class before the professor asks you to get out.

Ø People are very often misunderstood. Watch your words before you speak out. 

Ø Apart from food, water and air…you need LOVE to LIVE unless you are the successor of Osama bin laden. 

Ø Care without love is ok. But love without care is not. (Arcane thoughts, dismiss them :P Do not put forward any questions on this… its something only I would understand but can not explain :P )

Ø There are relationships of convenience. (Someone once said this to me and I denied. I cant help but agree with him today :| )

Ø Cry…until you have no more tears left. And then you will start laughing like a pig :P

Will come up with more…maybe the next time I am down and depressed :P

I donno what

Where fear was of no concern  

Suffering could not be found

People cared like never before

Their love knew no bounds

Days filled with laughter

I knew not what tears were

A place cocooned from evil thoughts 

As secure as cosseted treasures 

Where hatred had no existence  

And life seemed much easier

That's a place I grieve for

But a mirage it appeared

Depressed. Scared. 

I hate my emotions…they make me weak. 

Nothing and nobody helps. I feel things falling apart. Wish I were stronger. Wish MY moods

were in MY control.

P.S- Not really in a position to read blogs. Hope it is understandable. Will be back when things get straightened. 

Friendship Faked

For caring and loving you
With such selfless empathy  
And helping you through times
When you had lost your entity 

Sacrificing my self-respect 
Would be nothing but a penalty! 

Today the truth lay before my eyes 
The real feelings behind those faked
Wonder how it took me so long 
To see that selfish motive in your ways

You never realized I needed you too
I feel like I was only being used

So much self-absorbed were you
That you never bothered
What you’ve been taking away
In the false name of friendship 

Once again I regret being your friend
For satisfying your needs till no end

 
Stop taking advantage of my love. Chahe kuch bhi ho…duniya upar neeche ho jaye…Divya mujhe chod ke nahi jayegi…

I wish I could say the same about you. Just because you know I will be there for you… you cant expect me to bear with everything you do or sacrifice my everything for you. Learn to value my love.

~

Do not take me for granted
I may not always be there 
Today tomorrow or maybe later
I would leave this world 
The sooner you realize this…the better

So treasure my love
Keep me close to your heart
Give me the same feeling
That you will never depart  

I so feel the need of a baby right now.  :(

I wish someday you realize...

Your PRESENCE in my life….

matters much more than just EXISTENCE. 

P.S- The beautifoooool lady in the pic wishing for her beloved to realize :P Not to be correlated with my personal life unless n until mentioned :P :P.  *winks*

Towards 56 -Happy birthday Sami

Hey Moti,you are getting older :P. Congrats for turning 55 this year.  I have nothing new to say coz you've already read the card...so this post is only for displaying my creative work :P Love you lots. Umaaahhh

P.S- That’s the card I made for Sami of Sameera's haven. Cute na?