To div, from lena

i know whatever i would say wont help much, sweetheart and i wont tell you you shoud move on because it is really crap... you will move when time comes... not in a week or in a month.. such things dont just heal so soon.. take your own time, dont listen to anyone.. you want to cry, cry... thats essential, to cry your pain out, to get rid of all sadness... will take so much time to fill in this emptiness... just remember that no matter what you are stronger than you think, braver than you believe.. and you deserve hapiness more than anyone else...
you will be happy, that i know.. because you are one beautiful soul.. and because you are my little sister and i believe in you!!
you are one hell of a fighter and you will be there on the top of the world.. sooner than you expect.
I know you are sad, i know you cant really talk to anyone, cant take anything from anyone, cant accept what everyone is saying.... but just remember that we are always there for you, any time.. if you need someone to cry with, i am here for you... if you need someone to sit in silence, i am there for you... no matter when or what, trust me i love you soo much and whenever you are in pain, i am in pain too... but i just want you to listen to yourself and on one fine day to be back to your usual self, maybe a bit stronger than you were before, maybe a bit happier than before... and sure a bit more braver.. you wont give up on yourself, on your life, on your future... on people who love you and care about you... those who mail me every day asking how you are and if they can be of any help...
i know its tough to believe now. but you will be blessed with lots of success and happiness... and we all will be there to witness it and to feel proud of you getting through it..

i believe the new year will be the year of changes for you... good ones, happy ones, lovely ones... :)
love you very much dear!
take very good care of yourself!
and you know what?

you are the best!! :)