To be or Not to be

Her: hello?

Him: Haa sweety, what u doin?

Her: Was chatting before your call.

Him: With?

Her: The same ones that I chatted yesterday with ;)

Him: Those chats make your nights exciting, don’t they?

Her: Naa, just feels good with people around. I hardly chat with guys for you to call my nights happening or exciting!

Him: So you want a guy to chat with?

Her: Naa, I could get one if I want ;). I thought you know who I want to chat with!

Him: I know

*Silence*

Him: Say something?

Her: Hmmm how was your day?

Him: Are you angry?

Her: Why dint u call last night?

Him: Last night? *Thinks* Was late from office!

Her: In all those 24 hours, you say you couldn’t find a minute to call and let me know that you would be late from office or at least leave a message that you can not call?

*Silence*

Her: You know you can’t give this lame excuse all the time->work. Relationships should be balanced. It seems I am the only one putting efforts to keep this relation going while you are not bothered.

Him: Am sorry Jaan.

Her: This isn’t the first time I am saying this. When I have balance I call, but when I don’t… You know I would be worried…

Him: Janu, I know its my fault, please don’t be angry with me. 15 hours in office, I don’t get a minute to think about anything else! May be I’m taking you for granted; coz I know you will always be there!

Tears moistened her eyes and she was left speechless. *

Maybe I’m taking you for granted…coz I know you’ll be there…always*.

To be happy-> for how secure he feels with her or not to be-> for being taken for granted- she does not know.

Musings and celebrations

If you love somebody let him free. If he comes back to you he is yours…if he doesn't he never was.

This quote comes as a hitch hacker for people in love. If he truly loves you…he would surely come back! But how many of us are ready to let our love free? No, I am not talking of giving them that space they had always needed. It’s about the temporary detachment from your love when insecurity creeps in… to check if he would come back or not. Let alone the aftereffects, maybe they would come back and maybe you are too sure about it… still you can’t take that step of letting them free. Coz we are always afraid of losing people!

I also have a question to ask:

Is it ok if we were a bit possessive, selfish, afraid (of losing ’em) , angry and insecure in love sometimes...in other words...is it ok to have some negative emotions…besides the other obvious things that you feel in love? Or do you think love can be called love only when it is unconditional?

Now for the last part…it is my sweet baby cousin Dhriti’s Third Birthday tomorrow and I’m super excited about the chocolates, cake and the splendid dinner that is to follow.

Here’s a pic with Dhriti and myself together, one of my all time favorites! The tricycle is hers and that explains the look on her face :P

Trilogy

Potted memories you bring

Some sweet others horrifying

Even so you are held close

For all the lessons you've taught us

A bundle of hopes and dreams

But also unpredictable tragedies

Adding a purpose to our lives

You motivate us beyond rife

But it's the present that makes memories

Letting us live through hopes and dreams

Safe and fearless it makes us feel

The best of tenses and a present indeed

Change

We are often made victims of CHANGE- Change in people, change in relationships, change in feelings. But what hurts the most is when this change takes its toll on relationships- when people don't seem to be the same anymore; feelings fade off and the relationship seems devoid of the spark that it initially boasted of.

And those feeling ripped off are the ones who don't change, whose feelings remain intact irrespective of time and who struggle to keep the relationship alive despite these changes disturbing the situations from time to time.

The initial days of dealing with change are indeed difficult coz fear of insecurity and feelings of being taken for granted surface. These are the testing days- the times that will send the strongest of the storms to shrivel the trust, to shatter your dreams and all in all to weaken the relationship.

How does one cope with these changes?

With time however things seem to get better if you build up your abilities to understand people and tune yourself to the changing conditions.

It hurts you less if you are capable of molding yourself according to changing people and situations, if you are able to figure out the actual reasons behind these changes. People change not because they want to but because they have to…because the situation or circumstances demands so. And the sooner you realize this, the better.

P.S- Happy birthday Ali ;). My best wishes coming your way, have a great time ;)

P.P.S- I still don't have Internet facility. Thanks to Sami and Lena for being so helpful in posting my posts :P